Experiencing Impulsivity

Hi! And welcome to The Bipolar Buzz. Yep, same site, new name. My name is Lai and I suffer from Bipolar I Disorder. One of the symptoms of this illness is impulsivity. Hence, the domain name change. I also have insomnia. I couldn’t get back to sleep last night and randomly decided that changing the domain name for the blog would be a great idea. I wanted something more catchy and easier to remember. So, I came up with a short list of domain name candidates, then, when I finally got up out of bed to start my day, the first thing I did was spend money to get the name changed.

I cannot quite explain why I acted so quickly. I get in a hurry and just act without thinking things all the way through at times. For example, when I got my tattoos (which I do not regret) and piercings. Even things less permanent, like a hairstyle change or an online purchase. The idea pops into my head, and I don’t waste any time executing said idea. It’s an urge that just isn’t satisfied until it’s satisfied. It keeps tapping me on the shoulder until I address it. After I complete the impulsive act, my mind is at peace, and I can focus on other things. But, until it is finished, my mind is preoccupied with whatever bright idea I came up with this time. I cannot let it go or hardly concentrate on anything else. Can anybody relate?

At my most recent session with my therapist, we discussed organization and time management as a way to reduce anxiety, as I am looking to pursue my Master’s next fall. Well, in addition to that, I guess I’ve got something else to discuss with my therapist at my next session!

Signed,

Bipolar I